FUK IS REAL

Feeling useless ,,,, I do not like the pressure, it makes me helpless. I like to state that relex, relaxing, quiet. I like to be alone but not like themselves. I really do not like the same cycle, I'm glad updates. I really hate that name scakmate. I do not like defeat, but I like to budge. very afraid of heights ,,, ,,, hate depressedstate very annoying.................. What I do when faced with the harsh reality is fear, escape, forget about the problem, hiding, and then at the timethe problem can not be avoided anymore to do is accept it and make mistakes and lie. And at the end of my life to be messy and useless. Do notbelieve in the ability, hiding, and witnessing the success of others. It really makes the pain. Always position yourself in the worst circumstancesand very bitter. It was in because I was too afraid ofbad reality, very scared meso that makes it a threat that should I avoid. The reason why I'm doing it because I did not have a good reason for what answer. Help me if you get the answer. I was too weak to tell the truth in my own self and others. Actually, what my purpose? What do you know? which is certainly my intent just want to make my family happy point. But the fact is just the opposite. Actually whatis in my heart? What I want???? . I'm too scared ,,,,